Monthly Archives: September 2015

Nineteenth post……….weird catharsis….

My Labor Day weekend has been really good so far. Which makes what happened today all the more weirder. 

Someone I know at work is a Facebook friend and he posted something offensive to me. When I called him on it, someone else who works with us defended him, someone who by all accounts is an excellent person and exemplary worker. 

And I completely lost my shit. 

I don’t know why. I don’t really work with this person directly, but I went off on them and they probably think that I’m a horrible person and will tell everyone at work about how awful I am. But the really weird thing is that I don’t feel guilty about it at all. I felt this odd sense of relief. Like I had gotten it out of my system and I could move on with my day. 

Normally I would feel really guilty and apologize profusely, but I don’t feel any of that right now. I don’t know of this means that I’m getting over my fear of other people thinking bad things about me, or that I’m giving up on life, but I felt justified in my tirade. I haven’t really felt this way before. 

It’s weird.

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